Friday 11 October 2019

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Sooo after a long time i finally write again in my blog.
Man, it has been a very very long time isn't it? Where was the last time i wrote.. let's see.. it's 1 year ago? ( * - * )
and after graduating, i'm pretty much busy with everything. being a junior doctor is clearly not an easy task. I started working at hospital at the beginning of the year and it was pretty much such an amazing experience, so here's a list of all the stations that i've been going through :

1. surgery
2. neurology
3. dermatology
4. radiology
5. internal medicine
6. pediatrics
7. anasthesiology
8. obstetrics and gynecology
9. otolaryngology
10. ophtalmology
11. Forensics science
12. Psychiatric
13. Public Health
14. Emergency Medicine

My favourite so far would be neurology because eventhough it has such a complex understanding, it's very easy and interesting to learn, besides that my second choice would be surgery because well i love being inside the operating room plus the cases are so exciting. Oh and a special mention for forensics because that one is also my favourite ~

When i started my work at the hospital, it was the very first time for me to live outside far away from my parents so  yeah, it definitely makes me feel homesick a lot of times but i also learn to live by myself and being independent never feel so exciting. It gave me the freedom that i always want but also at the same time, i learned to restrain myself too.

I dyed my hair in all different colours, went to a lot of malls by myself, stay at the coffeeshop by myself until night, bought a lot of figurines, merchs, and clothes, meeting with new friends, cosplaying with new group, becoming too addicted with escape room, cooking by my own so i can save my money for things that i wanna buy and so on.
 
I think 2018, makes me learn so many things. From medical related until learning how to love and comfortable with myself. I am always anxious and scared when i go outside by myself but now that i live by myself, i started loving my 'me time'. There's this somekind of freedom that you didn't have when you go by yourself. I actually don't mind being called single and lonely lmao, i think that people who said that just didn't know how to enjoy being themself.
Well i mean, you gotta love yourself first before loving other people, right?

Oh and i also met a lot of people from the touken ranbu fandom at the early of 2018, and i think it was one of the highlight of my life because for the first time i met someone online in real life. Obviously it was kind of awkward for me because i didn't talk too much and pop up that much in the group, but rei and haru (bless their heart) has always makes me feel less lonely and helped me  a lot with the fandom things

in conclusion, 2018 definitely the year of learning.