2021 : Year of Discoveries

 Hello!

andd just like usual, writing things only once a year lol but i really hope no one read this (?) and if you do, come back here once a year to just read my stuff then thankyou, i hope you enjoy this little writing i do that happened in my life.

I'm writing this in the end of january 2022 so after a while, i think i finally know what 2021 means to me. I finally taking breaks after 8 years in medical field. I would say i can finally breathe, like breathe. I guess it's really taking a toll after a while and i am really grateful that i am at this point and be able to take everything and stop for a while. I've always been wanting to pursue my hobby, just doing what i like, drawing, travelling, etc. 

There are a lot of things that happened in 2021, one of the best is having a group of wonderful colleagues that is like a sister to me. Despite all the dramas and stuff that happened, we get along and we are able to make a lot of experience like picnic, sleepovers, hangouts, barbecues, and many more. And the other thing that i find it endearing is living 9 months with lan zhan as my roommate did help me a lot and we create a lot of good memories like weekly groceries (seriously? lol), going to the cinema together, enjoying the small moments like watching the sunset while eating our dinner, cooking, singing with asa hati, going to the park and so many more. I realize we do have a lot of similarities despite our differences

OH andddd what's good this year? i spent a lot on stuffs that i have been always wanting to buy! (which felt so good!) i bought guqin, BJD (finally!after all those years) wei wuxian, analog camera, and wacom cintiq ! i kinda did regret a... little bit in the end because i spent so much but hey! i could always make more hopefully in the future and afterall, i was happy so it wasn't a waste

Pandemic might be going on and it does get worse i think around june because there is a lot of cases and death news... but this year, there are also good things that happened

Like...this year, after i quit my job, my art finally got recognized in the destiny community and omg my art went to this week at bungie !! i gained a lot of friends and followers from there and i'm so glad jinx introduced me to destiny. I also fell in love with Cayde-6 too eventhough he broke my heart :( Also! i adopted bunniesssssss (i've always been wanting to adopt one), adopted 4 bunnies name bangchan, lee know, bolu lulu and mochi.

So in conclusion, this year, i discovered a lot.

Maybe part of myself that is long gone. 

Reclaiming my passion, enjoying every bit of moments, 

this year is good. And hopefully, 2022 is better for all of us

 

with love, M.

Korean Diet Products : Labnosh Foodshake Review

 Hi hi~

here again with me, trying out korean diet products called Labnosh foodshake, which is intended to be a meal replacement that contains nutritious ingredients!

The first time i saw this what comes to my mind is that the packaging are so pretty and aesthetic, i love it so much! they come in different flavors and (a bit pricey) compared to other foodshake

What's inside :

The calories are pretty high, it average from 360-380 Kcal per bottle depends on the flavor. Contains 18% carbs, 32% protein and 14% fat (no trans-fat), covering all three major nutrients. Up to 28% of daily fiber requirements(Chocolate flavor) Intake of 15 types of vitamins and minerals.

Ingredients : Latte symphony[vegetable-based cream(hydrogenated coconut oil/coconut oil: foreign origin(Indonesia, Philippines, Malaysia)), sodium caseinate, acidity regulator, mixed skim milk(Netherlands)], sugar, dextrin, instant coffee dark roast{instant coffee(Vietnam) 90%, roasted coffee beans(Columbia) 10%} 6.4% mixed powdered milk] 32%, sunflower oil powder{corn syrup, sunflower oil(Foreign origin: Spain, Malaysia, Ukraine), whey protein(Switzerland), glycerin esters of fatty acids, soy lecithin}, Instant concentrated whey protein(US/whey proteins, soy lecithin), whey, polydextrose, sugar, coconut cream powder, processed starch, synthetic fragrance(Mocha scent), vitamin mineral mix EG(potassium carbonate, taurine, magnesium oxide, dextrin, inositol) – contains milk and soy

 

 

I only bought three because i want to try first, so my pick is coffee, cookies & cream and coffee. The serving is really easy and you just need to fill up the bottle with water and shake it all away~ it doesn't crumple like any other protein shakes and it blends easily ^^ There's instruction on how much you put the water and it's on the line. But still, since it feels too thick to me, i added the water slightly to the max (but if you like stronger taste, just add water on the line)

Flavor that i tried & my opinion :

Chocolate :  Tastes really thick, like a rich belgian milk chocolate. It tastes good! it feels really full after drinking this too

Cookies and cream : tastes soooo sweet, it has cookies crunch inside of it and it tastes good. But i don't really like something that is too sweet so this one flavor is just a bit too much for me. It does tastes like cookies and cream. Beware of this one since i cannot drink it one go, i put it for a good 20 minutes and turns out all the cookies are not crunchy again and it makes the drink feels slimy ^^)" so it's better if you drink this in one go

Coffee : i would say that the coffee tastes are really light that it's almost doesn't taste like coffee but more like a chocolate cereal with a hint of milk coffee (?) but i know a fact the taste is so similar with an energy cereal drink called 'energen' in my country that has chocolate taste. This one surprisingly doesn't feel as fulfilling as the chocolate and cookies and cream one, maybe because the taste is lighter than the other

my results....

i drink this in 3 days and my weight change :

61,9 > 61,5 kg

it doesn't change signicantly but it's because i only try it in 3 days and to be honest i do think it's an effective way as a meal replacement and it could help you with cutting your calories!

 the only thing that i want to note on this product is probably their amount of sugar are pretty high (which is about 17-34g in one bottle depends on the flavor) but at the same time their protein amount are pretty high too compared to another product that i know (range from 15-19g) so you might want to note that ^^" but overall, it has a really unique taste and i came to like it eventhough i feel like the sweetness is a bit too much

Korean diet products : Everbikini Ppagillacano Diet Coffee Review

 Hi!

I'm here again~ and finally a post that is not related to one year resume lol,

anyway i'm here to review one of korean diet product called EVERBIKINI PPAGILLACANO DIET COFFE , i was interested in this product because it has hwasa as their ambassador (and as a moomoo i was super excited to try it) plus it has very interesting active ingredients too

so here's the ingredients :  Garcinia cambogia extract, coffee powder, pantothenic acid, vitamin B1, chicory root extract powder, green coffee bean extract

garcinia cambogia is indeed used in a lot of diet products and i've tried diet product with garcinia before it surprisingly helps with my weight loss ^^ alsooo because it's in the form of coffee, i'm more happy because i really like drinking coffee~

Taste : 

the very first time i opened up the sachet, the smell are really tasty! it doesn't even smell like coffee, but like the smell of a very tasty noodle/potato chips ( i mean it ) so i'm guessing it's gonna be good. But it turns out the taste is just okay, like any coffee. The taste are really light compared to normal coffee, so don't worry~

Packaging : 

There's 28 sachet in 1 box, you drink it twice in a day (could be anytime but it said that it's best to drink it before work out) so it lasts for 2 weeks. 

How i drink it : 

since i'm not a fan of bitter taste i like to mix it with a spoon of milk. I pour it with 150 ml of hot water and it blends easily. I haven't tried it with cold water but they said it's gonna be good too. anyway since i left this on my apartment, i could only drink it from monday to friday and i didn't drink it in saturday & sunday. I also do calories restriction below 1200 kcal, did a 30 minutes workout so you might want to know if this could affect the result too ^^ 

Side effects :

there's no side effect of this diet coffee, no bloating, no stomachache, no diarrhea and actually i feel comfortable in drinking this one because i found out a lot of diet products has a diarrhea effect >_<

Result : 

weight loss : 62,9 > 61,8 = ~1,1 kg

abdominal circumference : 82 > 79,5 = ~2,5 cm

 So in my opinion.....

Taste : 💓💓💓💓 4/5

Effectivity : 💓💓💓 3/5

Side effects : none

to be honest i don't think that this coffee will work properly if you didn't do calorie restriction and workout sooo remember that weight isn't everything ^^ try not to stress about your weight and focused more on the process, like exercise and mindful eating~ and maybe set your goals from 'i want to get skinny' to 'i want to be healthier/more fit' that way you'll not get too stressed~

2020 : Year of Hardship

 Hello again,

it's certainly been a long time since the last one. Probably because i didn't really know what to write beside a reflection of the year. I don't really think that people gonna read this anyway, so i'm making this as a journal for everyone who hops in this blog randomly. 

So, 2020 definitely the worst year for me, hopefully because i don't expect to have another year like this. And i'm pretty sure that everyone thought the same too. the beginning of 2020 is just fine, i think. I went to a course to study, passed and finished it. But that was that. We didn't even get our graduation party because this whole pandemic thing and i felt so dissappointed. I was planning to wear this grandiose dresses and parties but covid strikes first before we even planned that.

But well, yeah, i passed.

I started working at cafe for part time job then continued my work on hospital, which is pretty nice because i get paid (almost) good this time. And my co-worker and seniors are pretty friendly, i like them to be honest.

Other than that, 2020 is awful. My dad went into accident and had to undergo several surgeries, almost critical, my parents company didn't last because covid happens, but at the same time i'm glad that the food business they're in help us a lot.

Oh and i got a new interest this year, it's because my roommate introduce me to the untamed that i got into chinese drama, novels, manhua and donghua. Mo xiang tong xiu's works are really amazing, it just fits perfectly to my taste, the whole plot, the character and the art is just *chef's kiss*. I also bought guqin because i think the sound is just too calming and beautiful, it's not yet arrived but hopefully next year it arrived safe and sound and i could learn it just fine.

In conclusion, i got so many life lesson this year. Both in bad and good way.

That healthy and togetherness is what most important in life. That money and fortune doesn't really buy you anything.

I really hope that next year is gonna be good, gentle and caring, full of happiness for all of us. I cannot wait to many good things ahead. I hope that this whole pandemic things ends quickly, i just want to travel abroad T - T

 see you next time ! 

 

2019 : the year of friendship

hiii~ 

it's been a long time this blog is more like a digital diary now lol (really, now i just came here to write stuffs what happened with last year lol) but i'm kinda glad that this is becoming a tradition to just write things i treasure so if one day people want to know my life (i'm not sure what for lskahsk) so far it's been great ^ w ^ )~

sooo 2019 definitely is a year of friendship. Having team when you work means that they'll be fight and stuffs and you will know the true friends there, and that's what happened to me. we have soo many chick flicks irl but lmao it's so fun honestly it's like living real life mean girls movies where you're stuck hanging around with the badass bitches but hey, i love them, because they're true and honest and loyal and they support each other. I kinda hate being the 'bad' part but i don't think they're bad at all, we're like birds of prey where harley got stuck with the badasss women and started fighting with the 'real' bad guys.

 

we named the group as plastic but then it becomes 'skinny meanie' not because we are skinny but because we are four chubby as heck and we kinda want to be skinny but can't (well, but honestly we're all like 'f*** beauty standards, we're beautiful' lol and this is why i love them so much, they accept me for whatever i'm like and that's what i need in friendship. Sooo for the whole year we did gossip gossip and gossip, i'm not a gossip person but hearing them talking about new things and stuffs are really interesting. We also did new things together, shopping, culinary alll around the town, trying all you can eat food in restaurants, sleepover, booking hotel room for 4 of us and going to the vintage bar (for the first time in my whole life) i've been wanted to visit in Majapahit hotel because i it looks like lupin bar in japan andddd take a photo of my dazai nendoroid there lol (my sole purpose, really) (i didn't drink tho ofc)

the other crazy thing we did together is probably book a house for only the 4 of us and it was DOPE. it was one hell of a stay, eventhough the house itself is not so pleasant but boi oh boi, we did lazy around in dress, pajama party, cooking together, going to the market together, have a good chat until we're all exhausted. We also bought matching rings together as a friendship mark~

lmao actually i forgot to tell you that we have extra member which is a guy but he's like very silent than the rest of us and like our little brother so yeah x'D

the other thing i discovered in 2019 is i got into BSD fandom and ohmyGod it was the best decision i've made so far. I have one hell of a group which is consisted of michelle and veni and we're like the buraiha trio, michelle as oda and veni as dazai then we have new member which is yhen that will be oda because she's more calm andd michelle as chuuya. it was so fun having them around~ i could laugh until i have stomach cramp and that will ended with so many memes and pics.

and then i met with a lot of friends too in BSD fandom, and i started my first zine too which is avocado toast for the first time someone commissioned me and i'm soo happy (T - T)

oh and by the end of 2019 i also have lou~ and that is the best decision i have ever meet because i'm so grateful to meet her, she's literal angel and goddess in one person.

anyway that's my 2019, year of frienship

i hope 2020 will be goood pleasee~

2018 : the year of learning

Sooo after a long time i finally write again in my blog.
Man, it has been a very very long time isn't it? Where was the last time i wrote.. let's see.. it's 1 year ago? ( * - * )
and after graduating, i'm pretty much busy with everything. being a junior doctor is clearly not an easy task. I started working at hospital at the beginning of the year and it was pretty much such an amazing experience, so here's a list of all the stations that i've been going through :

1. surgery
2. neurology
3. dermatology
4. radiology
5. internal medicine
6. pediatrics
7. anasthesiology
8. obstetrics and gynecology
9. otolaryngology
10. ophtalmology
11. Forensics science
12. Psychiatric
13. Public Health
14. Emergency Medicine

My favourite so far would be neurology because eventhough it has such a complex understanding, it's very easy and interesting to learn, besides that my second choice would be surgery because well i love being inside the operating room plus the cases are so exciting. Oh and a special mention for forensics because that one is also my favourite ~

When i started my work at the hospital, it was the very first time for me to live outside far away from my parents so  yeah, it definitely makes me feel homesick a lot of times but i also learn to live by myself and being independent never feel so exciting. It gave me the freedom that i always want but also at the same time, i learned to restrain myself too.

I dyed my hair in all different colours, went to a lot of malls by myself, stay at the coffeeshop by myself until night, bought a lot of figurines, merchs, and clothes, meeting with new friends, cosplaying with new group, becoming too addicted with escape room, cooking by my own so i can save my money for things that i wanna buy and so on.
 

I think 2018, makes me learn so many things. From medical related until learning how to love and comfortable with myself. I am always anxious and scared when i go outside by myself but now that i live by myself, i started loving my 'me time'. There's this somekind of freedom that you didn't have when you go by yourself. I actually don't mind being called single and lonely lmao, i think that people who said that just didn't know how to enjoy being themself.
Well i mean, you gotta love yourself first before loving other people, right?

Oh and i also met a lot of people from the touken ranbu fandom at the early of 2018, and i think it was one of the highlight of my life because for the first time i met someone online in real life. Obviously it was kind of awkward for me because i didn't talk too much and pop up that much in the group, but rei and haru (bless their heart) has always makes me feel less lonely and helped me  a lot with the fandom things

in conclusion, 2018 definitely the year of learning.

How to Make Graduation Hakama

Finally i graduate from my medical school in this november TwT after three years of struggle, finally it's time to enter the real world! I'll start working in hospital this december, and i personally can't wait for it >_<

About the graduation ceremony, i've decided (after a long time) that i'm going to wear hakama instead of kebaya. I know, it sounds ridiculous since this is not japan, but i want to try something new and since buying new kebaya costs too much this time :') so i decided in the end i'm going to make my own graduation hakama! I know most people might think that i'm not proud of my nationality, but no, that's not it, i just want to try something anti-mainstream in the end of school and also there's no rules that said we must wear kebaya, so why not? xD

Another reason why i want to wear graduation hakama is because the hakama itself has a long history and meaning. The history dated back to late meiji era, and hakama were originally worn by teachers of women’s schools, but gradually worn by students. Another source also told that hakama was a 'revolutionary' clothes, due to the fact that after the meiji restoration, fashion changed so much, included how women dress specially in the newly established girls school, and their uniform was hakama pants that worn over kimono, which makes them easier to do activity when they work or study. However, in this modern era, hakama is only worn in special occasion, for example like graduation. There's also meaning behind the number of the pleats, i forgot where i read it, but i will make sure to search it and put it here once i found the article again :D

but, hakama pleats in general represent the traditional virtues of the samurai and divided into five on the front and two on the back of the hakama.

Front pleats : 

1. Yuki (courage, valor)
2. Jin (humanity, benevolence)
3. Gi (justice, righteousness)
4. Rei (courtesy, civility) 
5. Makoto (sincerity, honesty)

Back Pleats : 

1. Chugi (loyalty)
2. Meiyo (honor, dignity)

And now, let's get started to the basic pattern! Anyway, this pattern is for someone who has a relatively big under bust like me, so if you are small and skinny, you might want to change the size :D also, this pattern might not be historically correct, since i combined the available pattern online and from seeing photos .

My under bust size is +- 82cm, and my hakama length is 98 cm (A + 8 cm) so this is the pattern i made :

hakama pattern

There's total 5 pleats in the front, and 2 in the back, and the pleats goes something like this :

graduation hakama pleats

For the side opening, there's a method to make it neat, you can read it in yousai blog, basically you flip it first to the front, sew it between the creases, and flip it back to back and sew it again in the back, and then it will create something like this.

hakama side opening

After that, put together the front and the back part and sew it~ and for the obi part (i don't know what's the part name actually hahaha) i made it both 300 cm long so i can create a ribbon at the front~

Anyway, a lot of people thought that graduation hakama is a pants, but actually it is more like a skirt since there's no divider inside it *_* 

photo credits to Kyoetsu's Shop

 And voila, after every part is sewn, your own graduation hakama is ready to wear! 

But wait, before that if you want to make your graduation hakama more neat looking and hard, you
might want to starching it first before you wear it!

and here's my final look of my hakama!

Graduation Hakama~!

Finally Graduated !