Saturday, 18 October 2014

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Halloween is coming near and have you prepared for everything?

Today i just rewatched The Purge : Anarchy and it's as good as the last time i saw it. If you haven't seen it, i do think that you need to watch it! The second The Purge is much much much better than the first, which is pretty weird for a sequel. But that's because the story expand, not only in one house, but explaining more what's going on actually when the purge is happened outside the house. It's thrilling and tense, and i really love how they made the plot. And plus, it has a good ending, you should watch it!

The Purge gave me so much inspiration for my halloween ideas, specially with the make up. It's scary and there's not a lot of effort to do. I have picked some make up ideas before, and it's involved with Kyary pamyu pamyu's and Us The Duo in Book of Life Soundtrack.

I know, i'm no good with make up, specially with pretty and all girly and kawaii make up, but when it comes to horror special effects (let's just say, like spooky make-up and zombies) i'm actually good at it. The last time i do that was for my friend's stage make up, and i turned her into a scary granny with a lot of wrinkles x'D (i know, i have a weird talent)

Kyary Pamyu Pamyu
 Kyary pamyu pamyu's make up definitely my first choice, specially because i can combine it with my seifuku and i'll added up with a devil headband :3 The second is carissa alvarado's make up from book of life soundtrack, it looks really good and fun to do! (i really love how she put up the bling bling stickers)


 And the third is from The Purge, which is actually cool and creepy (since both above is not that creepy compared to two below)

The Purge : Anarchy
There's still a lot ideas to do, but most of them are so difficult (like involved liquid latex, which is for now impossible to purchase it in here) and too risky. This time i want something that is simple but stunning and yet still have the creepy vibe :3

Friday, 17 October 2014

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Finally haematology class is over. I don't hate it but maybe because after the long 3 months of holiday, my brain didn't get use to a long-almost-15-hours-class non stop with added hours of laboratory experiments  (yes, clinical pathology class is kind of new to us) I accepted that i didn't study well this time, and i accepted that i study all of them two days before the final examination, and it went pretty.. messed up. But hey, at least it's not as messed up as ObGyn class last time!

Life has been complicated lately. Yes, complicated.
Too much feelings involved and since i'm not used to it, i kind of didn't know what to do. People came and gave me opinions, but well.. it really didn't make it easier. I almost wish i could throw it all away like i used to, but this time, it won't go -Because deep in my brain, i know i won't let it go-


I'm trying to be sober, but everytime one thing related to this/him (yeaah, 'him') appeared for a second, they're flooded all over my head. Feelings and thoughts. I feel like i'm completely drunk. It's like everything is different, so different. I guess, everything what they said about 'when you're in love, every song sounds make sense' is right.

Of course this is not the first time to me. I've been trying to.. not feel (more precisely, avoid) to this kind of feelings almost for 5 years. I didn't say that i hate being in love, it just that.. i'm afraid of falling down. 

I write things, stories (well, most of them sad stories) but it seems that eventhough i wrote about morals and how you dealt with heartbreaks or deaths, it seemed that i do not understand it that much. Specially when i am the one in that position.

Althea from Endymion
 As what we wrote in Endymion, when Althea finally accepted that Flux really gone, she said

 "No matter how much you stretch your hand out, there’s something that you can’t touch"
 and i believe that she's true.  

There's something greater, something that cannot simply explained by logic, eventhough i know that such thing as emotions and feelings are controlled by our lymbic system. I can't just run away from all of these feelings, and avoid them. That'd make me as a coward. 
This time, i want to choose. I want to make my choice, and no matter what happened, i'll stood and face it. I didn't want to run away again.

 See? that's how i got really drunk this time, as you can see in my writing -__- i hate to say it. But well, i don't know what to do anymore. It's not that there'll be someone read this and give opinions, but sometimes there are times i just want to write things.

Oh, and also, beside that long useless-chit-chat of something 'blurry', i got a few song that stucks in my head and everytime i have a spare time, i just grabbed and sing it along with my ukulele, here's my recent playlist :

High and Dry - Radiohead
Cooler Than Me - Mike Posner
Dekat di Hati - RAN
Jangan Cintai Aku Apa Adanya - Tulus 
Adelaide Sky - Adhitia Sofyan

I don't always listened to Indonesian music but when i do, that means it is really good x) Both for Tulus and RAN are really good, i'd give them 4.5 of 5 since i love all of their music. You should try to listen it to!