2024 : Year of Exploration

 Hi!

It's been a long time as usual~ i only write in this blog once a year anyway but if someone read this, keep it a secret (ssh i don't want people who actually knows me really read this blog x'D it's kind of embarassing) but!! this is a trace of  my existence in the internet~

Surprisingly this year has been going on too fast. I don't know, i feel like i didn't really achieve anything this year. Sure there are a lot of eventful days but... academically, financially... lol i didn't really achieve anything ((sad)).

BUTT unexpectedly i went to London this year. Like, very sudden. I have to be honest the whole trip very... surreal. It was winter, went  there for a WHOLE MONTH. From march to april, i spent the whole fasting month there and it was... excruciating T - T the days are longer since it's winter-spring, most of the time i can't stand the cold, gloomy days, the unbearable feeling of loneliness (okay i get it now when people said London is DEPRESSING) the 24/7 wind-unpredictable-drizzle, and the days with no sun, it all feels suffocating a lot of times and i got to be honest i don't find it as enjoyable when i was in Japan or any other country i've visited before. On the other hand, London has its own charm, i do feel like what i love the most about it is despite its weather, there are this longing, soft and comforting moments. Like when i see the sunset from my window or looking at the streetlamp in the night from above with wind softly breeze on my cheek. I guess it's the charm of the four season country, it just felt different every season, even with the uncertainty of the blossoming flower and the rains, they have its own charm.

a walk in windsor castle

I did spent a lot of exploring in this whole month, from museums, parks, bookstores, supermarkets, iconic places, i feel like i already explored the whole London by a month and it doesn't stop surprise me anytime.

this year i also feel like i felt the most lonely in a lot of time (not my bf fault) mostly because of the time when i spent in London plus one of my bestfriend got married to my other bestfriend. Idk, there's always this... feeling of left behind when someone close to you got married. But ofc i'm extremely happy for them! it's just i can't help it to feel that way, especially when they move out from town. It makes me wonder when will i get to have my own life like that.

Other than that.. my days was filled with normal-routines like helping in my cafes, work, movie dates (this year we spent more time at home watching movies rather than going out lol, i also found a new hyperfixation on warhammer because of my bf lol

Other than that, this year has been pretty eventful, from japanese festivals to iaido gathering with the girls, going to Jakarta for expo with my parents, adventure to the abandoned place in Dieng, the dramas (with the girls and boys) that's going on in the iaido club lol to the magical new year party with the iaido family, despite the feeling of loneliness when i'm in London, all the warm feelings i got when i get back home makes me feel even more grateful with what i have now.

So, that's that for this year,

Hope to see you soon 2025! 

(and lol i'm finishing the last half of this in 2025)

2023 : Year of Events

 Hi!

As a tradition, once a year i will be writing in this blog to recap how my year has been eventhough i'm pretty sure no one reads blog anymore lol (especially this blog) but if you do then.. welcome? and i hope you enjoy this little bits of stories in my life :)

This year has been going really good. The early of 2023 wasn't an easy one, i have things happened but well when one door close, another one open. I have a boyfriend this year (kind of unexpectedly and accidentally) he was in the same sports club with me and we get along very well quickly. I wasn't expecting that we have a lot of things in common but we did. There's a lot of up and downs obviously just like any other relationship but so far things has been going very well between us. We travelled to a lot of places, making a list of what-to-dos and what-to-visits, attending events, performing together, etc. It might be too soon but i love him from the bottom of my heart, and it's the kind of unconditional love that i put on him because he's just so kind and soft. I want him so bad and i hope that somehow we get our own happy ending too in the future together.

This year i did a lot of events with my sports club from gasshuku (it's like a training camp) with maik-san from germany, tournament (i got 3rd place!), drama performance (as okita from shinsengumi) and a lot more events. I did cosplays too, my favourite so far is becoming dark deku but well the outfits are just too complicated it's too hot to wear all day long lol.

I also visited japan with my bestfriend this year. It was a two-weeks travel all around japan. We visited Tokyo, yokohama, kyoto, kurashiki, hiroshima, itsukushima, and osaka. That travel felt so fast yet so long too, this time somehow it felt different than any other travel. While i am excited and there's so many things fun happening, it felt like a longing feeling that i can't describe. Sometimes i just feel estranged over a place, or feeling lonely despite the crowds. It's a feeling that i can't get off but in the end, it is still a really fun travel, especially i get to spend time with my bestfriend that felt like my own sister. Honestly she should be credited more because without her i wouldn't be this way, i wouldn't be this sane.

This year i also happened to get sick several times, from pneumonia to accident. It wasn't anything bad bad but lol it's kind of funny i guess. Oh and not to forget that i finally watched Coldplay concert this year!! one of my bucketlist and it was sooo majestic, so fun and so good. I hope that one day in the future i could watch it again (hopefully with charlie brown next!)

 I guess that's it for this year?

It was so eventful and yet i feel like i didn't do anything much.

I started thinking about what's next for 2024. And i hope i find my purpose.

But more importantly, i hope that 2024 brings so much more happiness, adventures, love and luck.

2022 : Year of Love

 Hello~

like i said in the last post, since i'm not that active in this blog, i will only write once in a year. Not sure who i'm writing to, but i guess this is a proof that i'm here in the internet and if anyone came across this blog and read this very random blog, i hope you enjoy this xD

so, 2022 begin with me finally trying to come back to medical field & work in one of the covid-19 quarantine hospital in the city. Surprisingly eventhough it sounds scary, it's less stressful compared to the emergency room. I do enjoy my time there despite some problematic that comes from the internal issues, everything is good. I have a lot of free time in between.

This year, i travel a lot. 

I went to my brother's town several times before and after his marriage. We have additional member of the family and it was really nice since it does feel like i have an older sister that really care of me. I also travel to cities to attend food exhibitions with my parents, trying luxury hotels to the most horrible one lmao.

The highlight of this year should be i finally travelled to Australia to meet jinx!

We've known each other for 3 years and finally in july we met and it is honestly the best travel experience i have felt so far. This is also my first experience travelling alone abroad. Sure there's a lot of difficulties before i finally go, from how late the australia visa acceptance (like 2 months) until the surge of the ticket itself (300% higher price from the normal price) but i'm still glad i am finally able to meet her.

We travelled a lot from the perth zoo, cottesloe beach, blue boat house, van gogh alive museum, etc. We walked for miles, we talked about a lot of things, we ride merry go round, we relaxed on the park in the sunny day, we enjoyed the beach, we dine beside the harbor, we watched kangaroos sleeping, we enjoyed the sunset together, we went to vintage bookstores, we play escape room, we cook,  we bought groceries, we cried together, 

we did so many things together. 

sunset at cottesloe beach

Despite that it's the first time we meet physically, but we feel like we have known each other soo long that it is so painful when it comes for us to say goodbye. 

i literally cried the way back home, have no appetite and just being so depressed. But this is surely not the end and we will meet sooner than we thought. 

another highlight is, my impulsivity actually brings ne to a new area that i haven’t touched in so long : cosplay. yes. i started working on hawks wings first then attend 3 events this year as hawks and toga and miraculously that leaves a positive feedback from people (i even won the best costume, like whaaat??) and plus i met a lot of people from that, like A LOT. it’s nice to be in a new community i guess, and it seems that every year i always met a new one (which is good)

and last but not least, i also tried iaido, and the club is so nice (thanks to H for introducing me to them) i haven’t feel so welcomed in a sports club before and they’re all so supportive! 

so yeah, this year, it would be the year of love.

i have found so many forms of love this year and it honestly… very encouraging. 

i really hope next year is gonna be a blast & a happy one ❤️  see you soon 2023!

2021 : Year of Discoveries

 Hello!

andd just like usual, writing things only once a year lol but i really hope no one read this (?) and if you do, come back here once a year to just read my stuff then thankyou, i hope you enjoy this little writing i do that happened in my life.

I'm writing this in the end of january 2022 so after a while, i think i finally know what 2021 means to me. I finally taking breaks after 8 years in medical field. I would say i can finally breathe, like breathe. I guess it's really taking a toll after a while and i am really grateful that i am at this point and be able to take everything and stop for a while. I've always been wanting to pursue my hobby, just doing what i like, drawing, travelling, etc. 

There are a lot of things that happened in 2021, one of the best is having a group of wonderful colleagues that is like a sister to me. Despite all the dramas and stuff that happened, we get along and we are able to make a lot of experience like picnic, sleepovers, hangouts, barbecues, and many more. And the other thing that i find it endearing is living 9 months with lan zhan as my roommate did help me a lot and we create a lot of good memories like weekly groceries (seriously? lol), going to the cinema together, enjoying the small moments like watching the sunset while eating our dinner, cooking, singing with asa hati, going to the park and so many more. I realize we do have a lot of similarities despite our differences

OH andddd what's good this year? i spent a lot on stuffs that i have been always wanting to buy! (which felt so good!) i bought guqin, BJD (finally!after all those years) wei wuxian, analog camera, and wacom cintiq ! i kinda did regret a... little bit in the end because i spent so much but hey! i could always make more hopefully in the future and afterall, i was happy so it wasn't a waste

Pandemic might be going on and it does get worse i think around june because there is a lot of cases and death news... but this year, there are also good things that happened

Like...this year, after i quit my job, my art finally got recognized in the destiny community and omg my art went to this week at bungie !! i gained a lot of friends and followers from there and i'm so glad jinx introduced me to destiny. I also fell in love with Cayde-6 too eventhough he broke my heart :( Also! i adopted bunniesssssss (i've always been wanting to adopt one), adopted 4 bunnies name bangchan, lee know, bolu lulu and mochi.

So in conclusion, this year, i discovered a lot.

Maybe part of myself that is long gone. 

Reclaiming my passion, enjoying every bit of moments, 

this year is good. And hopefully, 2022 is better for all of us

 

with love, M.

Korean Diet Products : Labnosh Foodshake Review

 Hi hi~

here again with me, trying out korean diet products called Labnosh foodshake, which is intended to be a meal replacement that contains nutritious ingredients!

The first time i saw this what comes to my mind is that the packaging are so pretty and aesthetic, i love it so much! they come in different flavors and (a bit pricey) compared to other foodshake

What's inside :

The calories are pretty high, it average from 360-380 Kcal per bottle depends on the flavor. Contains 18% carbs, 32% protein and 14% fat (no trans-fat), covering all three major nutrients. Up to 28% of daily fiber requirements(Chocolate flavor) Intake of 15 types of vitamins and minerals.

Ingredients : Latte symphony[vegetable-based cream(hydrogenated coconut oil/coconut oil: foreign origin(Indonesia, Philippines, Malaysia)), sodium caseinate, acidity regulator, mixed skim milk(Netherlands)], sugar, dextrin, instant coffee dark roast{instant coffee(Vietnam) 90%, roasted coffee beans(Columbia) 10%} 6.4% mixed powdered milk] 32%, sunflower oil powder{corn syrup, sunflower oil(Foreign origin: Spain, Malaysia, Ukraine), whey protein(Switzerland), glycerin esters of fatty acids, soy lecithin}, Instant concentrated whey protein(US/whey proteins, soy lecithin), whey, polydextrose, sugar, coconut cream powder, processed starch, synthetic fragrance(Mocha scent), vitamin mineral mix EG(potassium carbonate, taurine, magnesium oxide, dextrin, inositol) – contains milk and soy

 

 

I only bought three because i want to try first, so my pick is coffee, cookies & cream and coffee. The serving is really easy and you just need to fill up the bottle with water and shake it all away~ it doesn't crumple like any other protein shakes and it blends easily ^^ There's instruction on how much you put the water and it's on the line. But still, since it feels too thick to me, i added the water slightly to the max (but if you like stronger taste, just add water on the line)

Flavor that i tried & my opinion :

Chocolate :  Tastes really thick, like a rich belgian milk chocolate. It tastes good! it feels really full after drinking this too

Cookies and cream : tastes soooo sweet, it has cookies crunch inside of it and it tastes good. But i don't really like something that is too sweet so this one flavor is just a bit too much for me. It does tastes like cookies and cream. Beware of this one since i cannot drink it one go, i put it for a good 20 minutes and turns out all the cookies are not crunchy again and it makes the drink feels slimy ^^)" so it's better if you drink this in one go

Coffee : i would say that the coffee tastes are really light that it's almost doesn't taste like coffee but more like a chocolate cereal with a hint of milk coffee (?) but i know a fact the taste is so similar with an energy cereal drink called 'energen' in my country that has chocolate taste. This one surprisingly doesn't feel as fulfilling as the chocolate and cookies and cream one, maybe because the taste is lighter than the other

my results....

i drink this in 3 days and my weight change :

61,9 > 61,5 kg

it doesn't change signicantly but it's because i only try it in 3 days and to be honest i do think it's an effective way as a meal replacement and it could help you with cutting your calories!

 the only thing that i want to note on this product is probably their amount of sugar are pretty high (which is about 17-34g in one bottle depends on the flavor) but at the same time their protein amount are pretty high too compared to another product that i know (range from 15-19g) so you might want to note that ^^" but overall, it has a really unique taste and i came to like it eventhough i feel like the sweetness is a bit too much

Korean diet products : Everbikini Ppagillacano Diet Coffee Review

 Hi!

I'm here again~ and finally a post that is not related to one year resume lol,

anyway i'm here to review one of korean diet product called EVERBIKINI PPAGILLACANO DIET COFFE , i was interested in this product because it has hwasa as their ambassador (and as a moomoo i was super excited to try it) plus it has very interesting active ingredients too

so here's the ingredients :  Garcinia cambogia extract, coffee powder, pantothenic acid, vitamin B1, chicory root extract powder, green coffee bean extract

garcinia cambogia is indeed used in a lot of diet products and i've tried diet product with garcinia before it surprisingly helps with my weight loss ^^ alsooo because it's in the form of coffee, i'm more happy because i really like drinking coffee~

Taste : 

the very first time i opened up the sachet, the smell are really tasty! it doesn't even smell like coffee, but like the smell of a very tasty noodle/potato chips ( i mean it ) so i'm guessing it's gonna be good. But it turns out the taste is just okay, like any coffee. The taste are really light compared to normal coffee, so don't worry~

Packaging : 

There's 28 sachet in 1 box, you drink it twice in a day (could be anytime but it said that it's best to drink it before work out) so it lasts for 2 weeks. 

How i drink it : 

since i'm not a fan of bitter taste i like to mix it with a spoon of milk. I pour it with 150 ml of hot water and it blends easily. I haven't tried it with cold water but they said it's gonna be good too. anyway since i left this on my apartment, i could only drink it from monday to friday and i didn't drink it in saturday & sunday. I also do calories restriction below 1200 kcal, did a 30 minutes workout so you might want to know if this could affect the result too ^^ 

Side effects :

there's no side effect of this diet coffee, no bloating, no stomachache, no diarrhea and actually i feel comfortable in drinking this one because i found out a lot of diet products has a diarrhea effect >_<

Result : 

weight loss : 62,9 > 61,8 = ~1,1 kg

abdominal circumference : 82 > 79,5 = ~2,5 cm

 So in my opinion.....

Taste : 💓💓💓💓 4/5

Effectivity : 💓💓💓 3/5

Side effects : none

to be honest i don't think that this coffee will work properly if you didn't do calorie restriction and workout sooo remember that weight isn't everything ^^ try not to stress about your weight and focused more on the process, like exercise and mindful eating~ and maybe set your goals from 'i want to get skinny' to 'i want to be healthier/more fit' that way you'll not get too stressed~

2020 : Year of Hardship

 Hello again,

it's certainly been a long time since the last one. Probably because i didn't really know what to write beside a reflection of the year. I don't really think that people gonna read this anyway, so i'm making this as a journal for everyone who hops in this blog randomly. 

So, 2020 definitely the worst year for me, hopefully because i don't expect to have another year like this. And i'm pretty sure that everyone thought the same too. the beginning of 2020 is just fine, i think. I went to a course to study, passed and finished it. But that was that. We didn't even get our graduation party because this whole pandemic thing and i felt so dissappointed. I was planning to wear this grandiose dresses and parties but covid strikes first before we even planned that.

But well, yeah, i passed.

I started working at cafe for part time job then continued my work on hospital, which is pretty nice because i get paid (almost) good this time. And my co-worker and seniors are pretty friendly, i like them to be honest.

Other than that, 2020 is awful. My dad went into accident and had to undergo several surgeries, almost critical, my parents company didn't last because covid happens, but at the same time i'm glad that the food business they're in help us a lot.

Oh and i got a new interest this year, it's because my roommate introduce me to the untamed that i got into chinese drama, novels, manhua and donghua. Mo xiang tong xiu's works are really amazing, it just fits perfectly to my taste, the whole plot, the character and the art is just *chef's kiss*. I also bought guqin because i think the sound is just too calming and beautiful, it's not yet arrived but hopefully next year it arrived safe and sound and i could learn it just fine.

In conclusion, i got so many life lesson this year. Both in bad and good way.

That healthy and togetherness is what most important in life. That money and fortune doesn't really buy you anything.

I really hope that next year is gonna be good, gentle and caring, full of happiness for all of us. I cannot wait to many good things ahead. I hope that this whole pandemic things ends quickly, i just want to travel abroad T - T

 see you next time !