Hi!
It's been a long time as usual~ i only write in this blog once a year anyway but if someone read this, keep it a secret (ssh i don't want people who actually knows me really read this blog x'D it's kind of embarassing) but!! this is a trace of my existence in the internet~
Surprisingly this year has been going on too fast. I don't know, i feel like i didn't really achieve anything this year. Sure there are a lot of eventful days but... academically, financially... lol i didn't really achieve anything ((sad)).
BUTT unexpectedly i went to London this year. Like, very sudden. I have to be honest the whole trip very... surreal. It was winter, went there for a WHOLE MONTH. From march to april, i spent the whole fasting month there and it was... excruciating T - T the days are longer since it's winter-spring, most of the time i can't stand the cold, gloomy days, the unbearable feeling of loneliness (okay i get it now when people said London is DEPRESSING) the 24/7 wind-unpredictable-drizzle, and the days with no sun, it all feels suffocating a lot of times and i got to be honest i don't find it as enjoyable when i was in Japan or any other country i've visited before. On the other hand, London has its own charm, i do feel like what i love the most about it is despite its weather, there are this longing, soft and comforting moments. Like when i see the sunset from my window or looking at the streetlamp in the night from above with wind softly breeze on my cheek. I guess it's the charm of the four season country, it just felt different every season, even with the uncertainty of the blossoming flower and the rains, they have its own charm.
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| a walk in windsor castle |
I did spent a lot of exploring in this whole month, from museums, parks, bookstores, supermarkets, iconic places, i feel like i already explored the whole London by a month and it doesn't stop surprise me anytime.
this year i also feel like i felt the most lonely in a lot of time (not my bf fault) mostly because of the time when i spent in London plus one of my bestfriend got married to my other bestfriend. Idk, there's always this... feeling of left behind when someone close to you got married. But ofc i'm extremely happy for them! it's just i can't help it to feel that way, especially when they move out from town. It makes me wonder when will i get to have my own life like that.
Other than that.. my days was filled with normal-routines like helping in my cafes, work, movie dates (this year we spent more time at home watching movies rather than going out lol, i also found a new hyperfixation on warhammer because of my bf lol
Other than that, this year has been pretty eventful, from japanese festivals to iaido gathering with the girls, going to Jakarta for expo with my parents, adventure to the abandoned place in Dieng, the dramas (with the girls and boys) that's going on in the iaido club lol to the magical new year party with the iaido family, despite the feeling of loneliness when i'm in London, all the warm feelings i got when i get back home makes me feel even more grateful with what i have now.
So, that's that for this year,
Hope to see you soon 2025!
(and lol i'm finishing the last half of this in 2025)
